Sunday, 6 September 2015

Being lonely in a crowd!

My friend's article on Loneliness in Deccan Chronicle sent me off to a philosophical mode! she was talking about being lonely even with people around! Being alone and being lonely are two different things! i do know the difference! I do live alone but i dont always feel lonely! But at times even I am affected by loneliness! Close friends or family can be depended on to drive those blues away. Even otherwise i have my most dependable friend 'my books' to fall back.

But once in a while i do end up questioning the meaning of my life. i think most of us have such thoughts striking at us when we feel low. We get up rush to office, do our work sincerely and rush back home! Do house work, watch our favourite TV shows and then go to sleep! Then next day, same thing starts again!!! So why are we doing this again and again? Is there any reason for all these?

Does having a family make it more meaningful? i ask myself! i look at my people with children. Children - best of God's creation! they come with their own gifts and responsibilities. Parents need to work to care for their children, to give them physical comforts and emotional wellbeing. When a child comes running to you as soon as u come home, that happiness cannot be measured! But the monotony of daily house work and caring for children doesnt give you time to enjoy those small joys of children. I can see screaming parents who are bogged down with work, have no energy to spend extra time with their beautiful children. By the time they realize, children are grown up as teenage horrors who would make sure that they dont listen to their parents as they are now in their teenage. Now comes the hard phase of parenting.

In all these struggles children's academics and career create even more stress! So does having children makes your life more meaningful? When after all the trauma and trouble, children grow up and step out to try their freedom. Now parents, old and tired are alone again! If the parents are still a close couple, that will give them good support. If not, or if one person is not there anymore, then the other parent, is now single and alone! So now it is being old and alone!

So we are going to end up alone only! So why go through all the trouble? Ok that is called living! But is there a meanign for all this living - either alone or with family? i am still searching for the meaning!

Now i blame all this on my friend and her article!!! It is sunday evening and i am going to be afflicted with Monday Blues, and on top of that this confusing questions!!!